Hello Winter!

It's snowing or rather it's a dreadful mix of running and frozen water coming from the sky.
Why??? Where can I complain? I want my money back!!!

So, it's Friday today - nice. I'm going to rent a DVD tonight and have a drink.
Now, I've been trying to get the morning paper for some time now. A salesperson called and offered me a very good deal so I said yes. This was 2 weeks ago and still no paper. They called yesterday claiming they have got the wrong address but somehow they got my phonenumber right. Now it is suppose to come tomorrow... we'll see about that.

There is one person who annoys me more than anyone on this planet: Linda Skugge (unfortunately she writes in Swedish). Anyway she is on a personal crusade trying to convince women in their 30ies to have children. The irony is that she used to be a very trendy "city-girl" and now she has kids and a house in the suburbs and is just plain sad!
She has always been very judgmental about peoples lifestyles - it's very much her way or the highway but seriously....
If she wants to have kids and live in the suburbs - fine. I'm happy for her but why can't she respect other peoples choices? And now - even worse - she is against free abortions! I am totally pro-choice! I have a very hard time believing that women would use abortion as birthcontrol.
She seriously promotes that OB's should convince women to have kids since "there are so many women who wants to have kids and can't". Ok, that is NOT an argument. I truly feel very sorry for those who wants to have kids and can't but will they be happier if I have kids?? No, didn't think so.
I have never had an abortion (knock on wood) but I really don't think it would be a decision I would take lightly.
In theory, if I became pregnant, I could keep the baby. I mean I am a quite capable adult but I don't want to. I have never had that desire to have children. Maybe my maternal genes are just not functioning. I mostly find kids loud and annoying...

Spoke to Dr C yesterday. I think he has found my blog since he told me about what's going on in his life just like I wanted :) But then... he said to me: "Maybe you'll feel better and have more fun if you'd get a job" Gee, thanks for that advice, that idea never actually crossed my mind. What the hell does he think I've been doing for the last 3 months?!?!
Today I got an answer to the mail I sent to place where I'd like to work and they want me to send over my cv :) Keep your fingers crossed for me!!

Big shoutout to fierce and fab Gonzo who had her birthday!

Saturday I'm having dinner with sis, Hannah and Tanja. And then we'll hit the town for some drinks. Might see you out there!
Take care!

Song of the day: The Max - Prince

Hello Boredom!

It's official: I have no life! The prime of my day today seems to be the laundry and a call from mum...
OMG, a job is a must right now. Did however work at Huvudsta yesterday which was fun as usual. Camilla, friend from Huvudsta, is leaving and starting up her own business: she is becoming a bag designer! How cool isn't that?!? I will so buy her stuff when they come out.

Spoke to Dr C on Monday night, or more like Tuesday morning. I called to see if we could have lunch today but he is busy. I so tried to tell him a the stuff I'm thinking about over the phone but it was 1 o'clock at night so my mind wasn't that clear.
So far I've come up with (or my fierce buddy Nick has come up with) the fact that I think way too much. I should just go with my gut feeling. But it was my gut that got me into this trouble to start with...
So what does my gut tell me??!?!
I do like him a lot most of the time.
I wish we could "connect" easier but I know that I'm partly to blame for that as I do not like to talk about myself

Ok, enough of the rambling: next time I see him I'm going to tell him that I'd like to keep seeing him, more often and we need to define what we are. If only for my own peace of mind.

Now there I have it, that is what I need: peace of mind. Just wonder where I'm going to find it....

So hungry now!

Take care!

Song of the day: Sooner or Later - Madonna

Hello Consumer!

Last impulse purchase: A new face cream by Laura Mercier
Best walk: Along Karlbergsstrand
Favorite drink: Champagne
Eat luxury dinner at: F12
Favorite street: Avenue de Champagne in Epernay
Best pre-partymusic: MJB and BWO
Best give awaypresent: A nice bottle of wine
Favorite luxury stuff: Expensive shoes and bags
Favorite sounds: Don't know
Latest discovery in Stockholm: Some really nice new restaurants down town
Favorite gallery: Don't really go to galleries but I like the Museum of Modern Art
Favorite site: Shortcut
Favorite magazine: Livets Goda
Place to take mum to dinner: Cook something nice at home
Favorite suburb: Huvudsta - the place to be ;)
Besplacece for coffee: Mojo (to stay) or Sosta (to go)
Favorite store: Tara Jarmon, ZARA and COW
Best lunch: At home
Favorite brand: Xuly Bet
Favorit animal: Cat
The worlds best living director: Ang Lee...maybe
Famous person I'd like to meet: David Gahan!!!
Favorite shoes: Can't decide but this summer I'll wear higher heels
Money spent on clothes each month: Depends..
Fahion roll model: MJB and Gwen Stefani
Most overrated store: Gucci
Most expensive thing I've bought: My apartment
Fashion I don't ever want to see again: Capri pants for men, seriously
Favorite product at Systembolaget: Most kinds of champagne
Best Hang over food: pizza
Favorite bar: NOX
Latest find: a very cool necklace at HM
Best novel: The Class by Erich Segal
Best poetry collection: Anything by Robert Blake
Favorite product from the pharmacy: resorb - the best thing against a hangover
Order at the bar: Champagne or Cosmopolitans

So, indulge me with your lists :)

On Strike

It's not only the French that are on strike. I am a one person procession of demonstrators...or it's maybe more like a boycott. I read that Tommy Hilfiger does not like it when black rappers wears his clothes - therefore I'm now boycotting anything by Tommy. I really don't think it will have any impact on the world business but still...
Now, regarding the French - they truly have my sympathies. The proposition is totally outrageous. By being able to lose your job with out warning for the first 2 years your have absolutely no security at all. The jobs I have had I stayed about 2 years.
It's crazy and I hope M. de Villepin will see his mistake and change his mind.

I admire people who goes out of their way to make changes in the world. I give money to the MSF and sometime to some other charities but that's it. I want to try to find something that I can be really passionate about (and this not being getting a new Furla bag). Maybe I should try out some volunteerwork....I'll look into it.

Talked to Dr C today. He is in Italy with his job, conference and skiing. I wish I was skiing in Italy...
He didn't tell me that he was going which only once again proves that I am not a factor in his life...
He has shut down his account on the datingwebsite - if that is good or bad I don't really know yet. I am going to ask him when he comes back to town.
On the one hand I suppose it's good that he is not dating someone else but on the other hand it could be that he has actually met someone else he wants to be with. (Wonder why buddy Carl says that I tend overanalyze things ;))

Blogger and IRL buddy Joachim left for his diving adventure in Egypt today. He'll be back in a months time and hopefully spring will have arrived then. Yesterday it was actually snowing!!

Next week I'm contacting a girl who is training to be a cook. She wants to work within the eventbusiness just like me. It would be great if we could find something to do together.

Now I will get back to watching figureskating :)

Take care

Song of the day: What Is A Man - Alexander O'Neil

Winter is back

and with a vengeance! Today it's actually snowing... again! The weekend was really nice. I got to wear my new sunglasses that I love and there was a feeling of spring in the air.

Last week was nice. I spent a lot of time alone around the house. Dr C was working a lot so we only spoke on the phone a few times. Friday was sis' birthday and we all met for dinner at an Italian place. The food was ok but the portion were quite small.
Got to met sis' new boyfriend. He seems a bit stuck up actually and he tried to make some jokes that no one really found funny. But all in all dinner was nice and it was nice to see Dr C again - I missed him (the romantic is back...;)).

Saturday was the Swedish try outs for the Eurovision song Contest. Now this is still a huge deal in Sweden. This last week it has been all over the papers "Did the right song win??" Well, if you ask me the answer is no.
Carola won, and all my respect to her as an artist but she has some opinions about the church, god and the gay community that scares me. To say for instance that being homosexual is a sin and you can be cured by prayer.... I DON'T THINK SO!!!
I can't really believe why some find homosexuality so offensive. As long as we are talking about consenting adults I don't care whether there is 1 person or 10 in bed (or wherever you choose to have your fun).
Hannah and myself joined sis and some of her friends and watched the competition. A-K, where we were, is so into this. She has taped all the competitions since 1981...
After the TV-show was over Hannah and I stayed and had a great conversation with A-K and her man. They are really nice both of them.

Sunday Hannah and me went into town to check out some clothes for the upcoming wedding. Now I know the actual wedding is not until August but it's always nice to be prepared :) I really don't know which dresscode they will go for. Knowing Gosta, he is kind of traditional so I think it will be quite a dress up occasion.
After strolling around a bit we went over to Nordic Light hotel for martinis and some wine and then off to Nordic Sea hotel for dinner. It's important to end the weekend in a good way I believe.
We got to talking about dating ex-boyfriends of friends. God, for me that is a huge no-no... Well at least depending on how much time has passed since the breakup. Less than 1 year is not happening for me.
Called Dr C to see if he wanted to join us but there was no answer. He had a huge presentation to work on. He called back a bit later but then my cellphone battery died so I couldn't call him back. Too bad!
Called him again yesterday by still no answer. I'm not that big on leaving messages for people so I guess he'll call me back eventually. I hope I'll get to see him this weekend, we both have been quite busy in the evenings lately.

Have been thinking a lot about relationships lately. Per and I talked last weekend about how to make your partner feel appreciated and secure. I know I'm not good at that but I'm going to try a bit harder. I will try to talk more about me and my feelings and ask more about him and how he feels about things.
We did have a nice talk about his job after sis' dinner. I tried to cheer him up and make him see the good sides.

Now enough of the drama I'm really hungry.

Take care!
Song of the day: Satisfied - Prince

It's all about sex...

1- How old were you when you lost your virginity? Who was it to? Describe the event.
Believe it or not, I was 18 and it happened in a hotel in Gothenburg. I would say it wasn't a very memorable event at all. Fortuneately sex has improved since...

2- What is the strangest place you've had sex?
A movietheater. Have had that fantasy for ages and met a guy who wanted to make it happen for me. What a gentleman ;)

3- Who would you consider "switching teams" for?
Halle Berry

4-Do you prefer to give or receive?
Give. Have been told I'm good at it.

5- One night stands- What's the protocol? Stay the night or get the hell outta there?
If it's at my place it's ok to stay the night. Since my mama raised me right I always offer breakfast in the morning. Leaving in the middle of the night without saying goodbye is a big no-no...

6-Favourite body part/parts of the opposite sex?
Hands, arms, legs and eyes

7-quickie or long and slow?
Depends on my mood...

8-Noisy or quiet?
A bit noisy, at least enough to know that I'm doing it right

9- Ideal amount of sex per week?
Twice a day

10-What's your number one sexual turn off?
Body odor and just no sex appeal

11-Number one arousal trigger?
A slow dance with a guy who can move

12-What constitutes bad sex?
No foreplay and a guy who moves too fast

13- Celebrity you would love to shag right now?
David Gahan and/or Lenny Kravitz

14- Define sexy?
Self confidence, brains and charisma. And the body awareness dancing gives.

15- Remember the best sex you ever had. What made it special?
The first time with my longlasting love Sebastian or the second time with Dr C. Can't really decide..
With Sebastian it was special because he did everything right and he was, at least lookwise, very much my type, and with Dr C because I was falling for him...

And now...IT'S ON!!

DAVID!!!

I want David Gahan, seriously. He is incredibly sexy and gorgeous and great. I could just keep him in my house and listen to him sing :)

More than anything am I bored now... Today I cleaned my apartment... again.
Yesterday I went training since I missed Mondays training due to a quick dinner with Dr C. Monday I was at a seminar about how to handle your finances when you start your own company. They talked about taxes and accounting. God, it is really complicated! I hope I can manage it. Got quite upset about it all actually, felt like an total idiot since I suck at math...
And then Dr C cracks this incredibly stupid comment about my hair.

Tomorrow it's sis birthday. She'll be 33! And we are all going out for Italian and we are meeting her new boyfriend. He actually called me yesterday and asked what he should get for her. That's sweet I think :) I'm getting her some bling-bling, am going into town tomorrow to get it.
Dr C was invited too so I think he is going to come. When I asked him he answered: that could be nice... A little enthusiasm would hurt!!!
I think we are getting to the point when we have to decide if we are going to keep dating or not. At least I am getting to that point.
He is incredibly sweet and fun but maybe we don't have that much incommon. The weird thing is that we have been seeing eachother for some 6 months but I can't say that I know him... Maybe we should talk more about ourselves. If he comes to the dinner thing tomorrow and we spend the night together I'll try to ask him more about himself. The problem is that if I ask him about personal stuff he will probably start asking me and I truly hate talking abut myself...

Did one very productive thing today: I sent my cv to some places where I'd like to work. Not that they are looking to employ but I could get lucky.

Am so hungry now..

Take care!

Song of the day: Strangelove - Depeche Mode

A better place

Have had quite a busy week actually.
Spent most of Monday and Tuesday looking for jobs. Wrote a really good letter that I'm going to send to some places where I'd like to work. Not that they are really looking but I might find some openings anyway.
Have trained at all last week due to my eye. It's better today so I will probably go training tomorrow again.

Thursday I went with sis and Tanja to the spring fashion event at NK. It was ok, not really all that great. One good thing is their new shoe and bag department. It really really nice. Checked out a Furla bag that I'd love to buy.
It costs about 300 euros but once I get a new job and a paycheck I will indulge myself. Because I'm worth it.

Friday I was home watching "Batman Begins" 3,5/5. It was pretty good since fab Christian Bale is starring in it. Talked to buddy Joachim for a while too. He was home cramming for his big Dive Master degree that he is doing in Egypt in a couple of weeks. He is nice, always manages to cheer me up when I'm not feeling all that happy. It does however feel a bit weird to talk to him about my relationship issues...

Saturday Hannah and myself went to the Winebar to celebrate Ingrid's birthday. We had a very nice time and once they closed we stopped by 7-11 to pick up some candy and drinks mixers and went back to Hannah's place for some more drinks. Dr C called and he was at a friends place having dinner.

Today Hannah and me (The Dreamteam ;)) went to a museum to see an exhibition about fashion and shoes. Two truly essential things in my life. It was interesting but I had hoped that it would have been bigger. Tried to get Dr C to come with us but he was at home sleeping and then he was off playing bandy with some friends.

Saturday night, on our way home, Per and I shared a cab. He is truly intelligent and fun. We got to talking a bit about relationships. He told me some very good thing about men and their views about relationships. As I think about what he said I do believe that he is right so I'll try to put my new found knowledge into practice :)

Right now I'm waiting by the phone... pathetic but true.

Friday sis is turning 33 and we are all going out for dinner at an Italian place. I need to get her a cool present but I have no idea what to get her. She asked me to ask Dr C to join us so next time he calls me I'll ask him.

Am looking at quite a busy week which is good :)

Take care

Song of the day: John the Revelator - Depeche Mode

Feeling better...

today actually. Haven't really done much this weekend, just moved my sad booty from the bed to the couch and back to the bed.

Two couples I know are getting married this fall. First out are the Brussels-couple G+V. They are getting married in Vilnius in August. Could be fun. They have been seeing eachother for 2,5 years and have been living together in Bruxelles for 1 year. G comes from a very big and very traditional family so I think the wedding will be very traditional. They met and he proposed to her one year later.

Second are D+C. They are exchanging their vows in Paris in September - very romantic... It's just that they have been dating for 3 months. I still considering it dating when it's only been 3 months...
Why do people do this?!?! Seriously, they way they are going off at eachother I doubt that they will last until September (suppose the romantic in me is dead and gone ;)).
Regardless it's a good reason for me to go to Paris...

Am considering taking a long weekend with sis and Henrik in Rome in April. Just hanging out, eating great food drinking wine and doing some serious shopping. Italy is always nice!

It seems like I'll be getting my way with the summer holidays. We will be renting a riverboat in France :) I'd love to go to the Loire-area and see all the chateaux. Most of them are open to the public and some are hotels so we could spend one night.

Watched the Eurovision Song Contest yesterday. I suppose it was ok. It's more fun to watch it with the rest of the gang. Last year we watched the finals at Anna-Carin's place and had a bet going on. We also gave our own points for stuff like best/worst clothes, best/worst choreography etc.

Now I'm dragging my sorry self in the shower and then out for a walk in the snow.

Have a great Sunday!

Take care,
Song of the Day: What a Diff'rence A day Makes - Dinah Washington

Note ot self: don't miss very fine Hugh Jackman as Wolverine tonight on TV

Not all that...

today. Well, apart from my hair that turned out really great. Now, when Roseline does my hair it takes basically 12 hrs, when Elizabeth does it, it takes 4,5 hrs.... Guess where I'll be going next time??!?!
Haven't been feeling very well this week and today I'm really really ill! I think I have an eye infection - my left eye is all swollen and I can't see clearly...Suppose I should go to the doctor.

Spent the day at Elizabeth's salon. Me, being the very time focused European I am, was totally stressed out by the fact that every one who works there moves oh so slow! Elizabeth, from Kenya, laughed at me and said that I was "very Swedish"... I guess so but how can I not be since I've lived in Sweden almost all of my life?!?! She asked me if I spoke Swahili, which I don't. It sounds like a very cool language though so maybe I'll learn it. In Liberia, my country of birth, they speak English I believe.

Tomorrow Hannah is having her "glamorous Dinner" but I think I have to miss it. Am not feeling very glamorous and with my weird eye I can't wear any make up. I'll see how I'll feel tomorrow but I think I'll be staying in this week end.

Saturday night is also the Eurovision Song Contest, which is a huge deal here. One of the contestant, Bodies Without Organs (that I like btw) have a gay front man. Because of that there has been a huge protest organized by the Neo-Nazis and such crap... God, what is wrong with the world we live in today?!?! I mean people still starve to death and all some can think about is who the next guy is sleeping with...

I'm spending my Friday night in front of the TV, drinking an herbal potion I bought that supposedly helps against a cold :)

Take care

Song of the Day: To Have And To Hold - Depeche Mode

Champagne, champagne pt III

Had a lovely time last night with Torbjorn and Anna. We spent the last money from last years champagnetasting on a bottle of Bollinger RD 95. We also had a Palmer 98 and a lovely Verdicchio that Torbjorn brought.
Anna brought duck's liver (foie gras). I know it is immoral to eat it due to how it is produced but I really really like it.
There where some demonstrations against restaurants serving it last week.

Had a good week. Was supposed to have my hair done on Monday. Talked to Roseline last week and we decided that she was coming over on Monday morning. When I hadn't heard from her late Sunday night (had already taken my old braids out...) I got quite worried.
She didn't call nor answered the phone. I left a few messages and then I started looking for another place. Was lucky enough to get an appointment the same day. So for now I have my own hair for a while. I'm going back to have it rebraided tomorrow.

Went into town to check out the annual booksale. Picked up a few crime stories and a Lonely Planet guide to Loire, since it seems like that's where we'll spend out summer holiday.

Now the "Bird flu" has officially reached Sweden. I'm not really that worried yet since I don't hang around birds that much.

Today I think I'm about to catch a cold... Dr C was here last weekend and sneezed so I guess I got it from him....
He gave me a cool t-shirt that he bought in New York. That was nice of him I think.

Today I'm staying in I think :)

Take care

Song of the day: The Bottom Line - Depeche Mode